Not a challenging life anymore.

I hope to change, everythings in my life except for my lovely and warm family as well as my good future husband.Things that i hope to change is my career, my qualification, my aim, my laziness, my financial status, my unconfident, my thinking.

This few weeks i met with many nice people, Ket and Hui Yi. Listen to their stories make me motivated but what is life really about? The more people i met, the more i confuse what i want. I thought i could be a simple girl who want simple things but there are many comments from people around me that make me can't stick to what i want.

I been thinking be stable and don't be materialistic but when i see what my cousins or friends with their latest gadgets, i hope i could own one. I thought i can be a full time housewife and taking care of my family but when i heard what my manager say, i feel like embrasse to have this thinking.I learned to be excel in your work place in any kind of environment but when i heard my friends said of their company's benefit, i hope to changed my job to a better company.

Should i just stay in a shell and avoid myself from everybody? I don't know who can understand me.

Now i'm facing my June 2010 ACCA exam. I left with 2 papers (F8 and P6). I want to pass both of them and start my new life again. I want to be a successful person and will be center of the crowd. I'm not sure whether i can do it with my shyness.